If you’ve already read “My Story”, you’ll know that husband and I have been dealing with infertility for the past five years due to endometriosis. Mercifully, we are able to move forward with our first round of IVF, as good candidates, right now. Our FET (frozen embryo transfer) is May 15th!
When I think about this time, these are some things that jump out to me:
Five years of…
…wondering what if I never have a biological child with Sean.
…learning I’m not anywhere near ready to think of adoption.
…learning adoption is a beautiful picture of God’s relationship with me – yet still rebelling against it.
…learning to smile through the pain.
…learning who our real friends are.
…learning how to be gracious in the face of utter insensitivity, bordering on cruelty.
…learning what not to ask a woman, man, or couple – ever.
…learning how much I love my husband.
…learning about the goodness of God in every trial.
…learning the futility of hoping in anything but the Gospel.
…learning my parental status shouldn’t define me – or anyone else.
…learning how precious the gift of empathy is.
…realizing I’m far too self-centered.
This list could go on for days.
I’m optimistic that writing about it, and documenting our IVF journey in the coming days, will be therapeutic. I’m eager to hear from other women who have experienced the same things, and what got you through it.